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  • Listening to: Imogen Heap- Speeding Cars

Don't have good Grammar so sorry 

Seven years ago I died. I was in a car accident with my fiance. I died and he didn't. I don’t blame him for my death but I have to blame it on myself. When I died he and I were arguing about something that night …….and I don’t even remember what it was. I just know I started the argument. Because of that argument my fiance and I were hit by another car. Luckily the other people who hit us didn't die but I wasn't too lucky. After my death my fiance never forgave himself although it was my fault. He started out staying home, drinking, and cry out in his sleep. I know because I have been watching him that month after my death. Eventually he went back to work but he drank a lot more and still cried in his sleep. I hated seeing him like this but I couldn’t do anything to comfort him. I couldn't say I’m sorry to make it up to him, I couldn't tell him I was in a better place, and I couldn't wipe away his tears when he cried. For nine months I would cry because I couldn't comfort my fiance.

Two years later I accepted the world I lived in but my fiance was still in the past. So I did what I could do to comfort him even if he can’t see me, hear, or touch me. I stroke his hair when cried in his sleep, try to encourage him to work harder on his job, and yell at him to stop drinking. By going this it made me felt alive and I was still with him. Like he and I are already married and on our way of having a baby. Everything about that car crash didn't even happen but that is a fantasy. I’m dead and he’s alive. I would do anything to go back to stop myself from getting into an argument with him, warn him not to leave or tell him to take a different route. I would do anything to go back in time but I couldn't. So God why can’t I go back in time? Why I’m I here? Why can’t I be with Eddie?! Why do I have to watch him suffer? Why?

It has been 8 years since my death. Eddie got addicted to drugs. He has been talking suicide like saying he will be joining me soon. I don’t like the way he’s talking about death because it was hurting me worse to see him like this. But I guess the guilt of my death make him almost died. Eddie took to many drugs and mixed them with alcohol. As he was slowly dying I started to scold at him. I told him he was an idiot and he needs to move on because he wasn't the one who to blame for my death. Then I told him what I wanted him to do so I can move on. I told him that I wanted him to start a new life and do the things I couldn't do with him. Meet someone new, marry her, and start a family with her. All the things I have been fantasying with my living fiance. It’s okay to live on. All of a sudden he said my name as if he heard me. He smiled and tears fell from his dyeing face.  

Eddie was barely alive when his landlord found him. He was sent to the hospital and he was treated. Being at the hospital Eddie slowly started to recover. He was finally going back who he was. He was becoming the man who I once loved. I was finally was able to get through to him after all these years. Eddie stayed at the hospital for a year for is addiction problem to stay clean. He meet a nurse who became his girlfriend. He was finally moving on. It has been 10 years since the car crash and 10 years since my death. Now that my fiance has moved on it is my turn to move on too and who knows maybe we will be able to meet again in the afterlife or whatever is out there after death. 

The Cursed Orphan Girl (#1)

Once upon a time there was an orphan girl who was cursed. Her curse was the touch of death. Anyone or anything that would touch her skin would die. Because of this curse the orphan girl was chased away to a dangerous forest by the town villagers. The forest had creatures that would kill you as soon as you take one step in the forest. The villagers thought it would be a great place for the cursed orphan girl whose touch can kill. When the orphan girl was in the forest a group of fairies found her and took her in. Sadly the fairies knew the orphans curse and used the girl as a threat to town for those who hunt fairies. With the threat by the fairies to the town they realized their mistake to case away the orphan girl to the dangerous forest. Every time the villagers see the cured girl they would either run away from her or ask for forgiveness. Although all she was doing was watching the villagers to hope someday to be free from her curse. So when she was free she could blend in with the rest of the human beings.

  • Listening to: Imogen Heap- Speeding Cars

Don't have good Grammar so sorry 

Seven years ago I died. I was in a car accident with my fiance. I died and he didn't. I don’t blame him for my death but I have to blame it on myself. When I died he and I were arguing about something that night …….and I don’t even remember what it was. I just know I started the argument. Because of that argument my fiance and I were hit by another car. Luckily the other people who hit us didn't die but I wasn't too lucky. After my death my fiance never forgave himself although it was my fault. He started out staying home, drinking, and cry out in his sleep. I know because I have been watching him that month after my death. Eventually he went back to work but he drank a lot more and still cried in his sleep. I hated seeing him like this but I couldn’t do anything to comfort him. I couldn't say I’m sorry to make it up to him, I couldn't tell him I was in a better place, and I couldn't wipe away his tears when he cried. For nine months I would cry because I couldn't comfort my fiance.

Two years later I accepted the world I lived in but my fiance was still in the past. So I did what I could do to comfort him even if he can’t see me, hear, or touch me. I stroke his hair when cried in his sleep, try to encourage him to work harder on his job, and yell at him to stop drinking. By going this it made me felt alive and I was still with him. Like he and I are already married and on our way of having a baby. Everything about that car crash didn't even happen but that is a fantasy. I’m dead and he’s alive. I would do anything to go back to stop myself from getting into an argument with him, warn him not to leave or tell him to take a different route. I would do anything to go back in time but I couldn't. So God why can’t I go back in time? Why I’m I here? Why can’t I be with Eddie?! Why do I have to watch him suffer? Why?

It has been 8 years since my death. Eddie got addicted to drugs. He has been talking suicide like saying he will be joining me soon. I don’t like the way he’s talking about death because it was hurting me worse to see him like this. But I guess the guilt of my death make him almost died. Eddie took to many drugs and mixed them with alcohol. As he was slowly dying I started to scold at him. I told him he was an idiot and he needs to move on because he wasn't the one who to blame for my death. Then I told him what I wanted him to do so I can move on. I told him that I wanted him to start a new life and do the things I couldn't do with him. Meet someone new, marry her, and start a family with her. All the things I have been fantasying with my living fiance. It’s okay to live on. All of a sudden he said my name as if he heard me. He smiled and tears fell from his dyeing face.  

Eddie was barely alive when his landlord found him. He was sent to the hospital and he was treated. Being at the hospital Eddie slowly started to recover. He was finally going back who he was. He was becoming the man who I once loved. I was finally was able to get through to him after all these years. Eddie stayed at the hospital for a year for is addiction problem to stay clean. He meet a nurse who became his girlfriend. He was finally moving on. It has been 10 years since the car crash and 10 years since my death. Now that my fiance has moved on it is my turn to move on too and who knows maybe we will be able to meet again in the afterlife or whatever is out there after death. 

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Ikarusthefirst Featured By Owner 1 day ago  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you! c:
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Thanks for the fav!
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Thanks for the fav :3 :iconwoompa:
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Geebler-art Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2014
Hey you, Thank for the fave ^^
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nice art!
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Phantagrafie Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2014   General Artist
Thanks so much for faving my DD and sorry for the delay! ;)
Girl in the moon by Phantagrafie
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RohanAlexander Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks so much for the :+fav: :la:
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Danke for faving ^_^
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thanks for the fav
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